knock... knock...

Knock... Knock... this is what my head, my heart, my soul feels like right now. I know that God is knocking on "my door" and is begging to come in... but He is a stranger. He is new to me. He wants to be with me. How do I change the last 38 years of my life and let Him be here? How do I admit that what I have been doing for years and years is not the right way? How do I let Him be the way... my way?

I just do... I breathe (in through the nose, out through the mouth), I open my heart and my mind, and I just let it be. I take the first step and that is admitting... I AM A FOLLOWER OF CHRIST! I am vulnerable, I am open and I know it is NOT going to be easy... but above all else? I KNOW I am doing exactly what God has called me to do. I am going to be the best me... the best mom to my kids, the best wife to my husband and the best daughter to my Heavenly Father.

It is going to be hard, and scary, and new... but it is going to be one heck of a ride! A ride I don't want to get off... 



“Let your mind start a journey thru a strange new world. Leave all thoughts of the world you knew before. Let your soul take you where you long to be...Close your eyes let your spirit start to soar, and you'll live as you've never lived before.”

-Erich Fromm